Good Bye Old Fucking Chinese New Year

Well last Chinese New Year happened to be my year which is the boar. At the beginning of the year my Vietnamese friend told me that it could either mean I will have great luck or that I will have really fucking pitiful fuck me silly with an orange cone bad luck. Well it turned out to be the latter and the orange cone was mostly my own stupidity plus the justice system or as I like to call them "Money Hungry Whores" or "Molesters of Wallets and life".
Last year was fucking horrible and like I said it was mostly my fault but I truly did not mean it. I crashed my car and into several other peoples cars. I got on probation and have to go to more meetings then the fucking president. I have to pay them oodles and oodles of money and plus well I can kiss any car insurance good bye because I heard they are not taking souls as a down payment at the moment.
I have also become addicted to a favorite substance I would like to call Oxys because well during the time it made me not give a flying fuck about all the drama that was circulating around my life. Also my dog had to be put down and that experience was awesome. I couldn't go to a few important weddings and now including my sister's birth because well the "Money Hungry Whores" just don't want their money travelling around.
But I do say I have experienced a lot. I am no longer an addict. I will never drink and drive again well I will never drink again period. I learned what it feels like to hit total rock bottom and slowly climb out of it. I have a new perspective on life due to my meetings and meeting some really fucked up individuals who live amongst us including myself. And well I have learned to appreciate the small things in life.
And you say that the your Chinese Year will bring you good luck or bad luck on my next blog I will talk about a crazy ass incident that happened to me right before the New Chinese New Year. It is about work and well I can't write about it while I'm at work.

Mushrooms

I have dabbled in a lot of drugs during my time of life. But when it came to psychedelics I always had a love for them. Acid I do not like because it is dirty and not natural. Also there is a chance you could get fucked on it for the rest of your life. But when it comes to mushrooms it is very natural and no matter what it will wear off and go away. What I like most about mushrooms is the realization of things that it can open up for you. It is definitely something that everyone should try at least once in your life. I had a lot of great times on mushrooms and some really friggin bad ones where I didn't know what the hell was going on. One time I took some really potent ones and I saw some really scary stuff. But when it comes to a bad trip the thing you can count on is just tell yourself that soon it will be over. Now back into why I think everyone should try them. The reason why I believe this is because it opens up a light on some issues in your life that you are either ignorant to see or your regular state of mind doesn't allow you to think past to see this. For instance I was going through a really bad time at one point of my life and I couldn't get over it. Nothing I did or thought could get me out of the feeling I was experiencing. So I managed to get my hands on some mushrooms and when I started to trip these issues I had all of suddenly became crystal clear. I ventured deep into my psych and into my soul and started to evaluate the issue. I started to understand everything and even accepted it and found a way to deal with it. It was amazing. So after that every year at least once I would trip either with people or by myself. I recommend until you become experienced with tripping don't do it by yourself.
Tripping also heightens your senses to colors you never noticed and also tastes and smells. It opens up all the little things you take for granted in every day life and blows it up to the point you become inf actuated with it and love it. It also can be quite a great high and just a plain old good time.
But you can also have some bad ones. You can lose con troll of yourself really easy if you let it happen and all it takes is one bad thought or feeling and then it is all down hill from there. But even after bad trips and good ones your mentality changes after. I can't explain it thoroughly enough for people who never experienced it but it is almost like becoming enlightened. I don't recommend doing these for a high or something to get fucked up on. I recommend using it for a spiritual ritual. You can have a really good time on it and it is far from addictive. Imagine laughing non stop for 15 minutes or listening to music and hearing every instrument play through your body and vibrate your inner child. Imagine during the fall time and all the gorgeous leaves from the trees light up like it was Christmas almost like mother nature is putting on a grand show for you. This is a drug I highly recommend I could go on for ever about this but I rather let you all experience it for yourself because every trip is different just like every person is.

My Hatred For Money

Money we all need it. You can not possibly live with out it, or you can't live with out it in the areas where currency is so important. I could go move to a third world country and live by the land and have a good life but living in America it is not that easy. With how the world is here it is like money is our life line. With out it you can't have a roof over your head or feed your belly. But what I'm mostly getting is at is what money can do to people. I seen it first hand split families apart by greed of what people think they should be getting. It also has now split two of my best friends apart because of something that doesn't even breathe. It sickens my stomach in how something that is just a piece of paper could have such a strong impact on our lives. I will admit it if I had lots of money I wouldn't have the problems that I have now. It is not very Buddhist of me to say this because I am supposed to follow a way of life that is not materialistic but it is not that easy when everything is being shoved in your face about what the better way of life is defined by having a good sum of money in your pocket.
Even trying to get girls around here the first thing they look at is - is this guy a bum or could he support me? Not every woman is like this but I bet you the majority of women are. Don't believe me how about if I were to say "would you like to go out with me? We can catch the bus around this time then walk a few minutes to this nice restaurant that is having great prices on soup." Its all about who's got the nice car, who dresses with the expensive name brands - do you know a shirt that is really expensive could look like a piece of shit compared to a much cheaper one but the fact that people know it is very expensive makes it look a lot better - Like What the Fuck has anyone seen what Versace clothing looks like? I could take two of the same items then on one just change the name to a name brand one and see which one will sell more. Guarantee it will be the one with the name brand.
Money is what makes the world go round and it is so fucking true, there is not even any exaggeration to that. Like I would love to have a job where I can write or be a personal trainer and a nutritionist or even be able to teach yoga. But those things don't pay the bills so instead I work my ass off in a place I don't really like that is very stressful at times because it pays better. I also see my family in a sad mood because we don't have money. Some people look down at us because there is like seven people living under the same roof or how I used to be criticized about sharing a room with my sister because we couldn't afford to build another room for me to live in. This didn't bother me one bit but I hated how people would think that way. Or another one is with my other family and they used to own a good business that brought in some good income. Things went down hill and they were all worried about not being able to vacation in good spots or not having the nicest of things. We should not have to worry about these things but this is what the culture of money has done to us all.
I never really had lots of money so I could care less. But I am still affected by this because you would never see me driving a fucking Kia or going to a night out in a club with a shirt I purchased at Wallmart. I wish there was something I could do about this but money is tattooed into our culture and this one will never go away or fade out.

The Love Of My Life

This is the girl of my dreams and also the one who is going to be my wife. She is the greatest woman I have ever met. I can not go a minute with out thinking of her. I constantly try to imagine her before I sleep in hope that she can be in my dreams. She is what makes me look forward to the future. I can not find one imperfection of her. I love everything about her from the top of her head to the end of her feet. Her beautiful smile and soft exotic eyes make my heart melt with that strong emotion of love. I will do anything for this woman and I will shower her with love for the rest of our lives.
I love you Phuong and I will always be the perfect husband, friend, and lover.
Anh yêu em vợ của tôi.

Congrats To Nick and Mika

I would like to say congratulations to the two most wonderful people in the world that I am lucky enough to call friends. Nick my closest friend that I have known before I knew that being nice gets you a lot further in life and Mika the most beautiful and kind hearted woman who has given my friend Nick the gift of undying love are now soon to be parents to a beautiful and healthy child. These two will be the best parents any child would be lucky to have. And with their both artistic and give every minute in life all you got way of living this child I imagine will grow up to be extraordinary. I love you two with all my heart and even though we are far apart I will always be here for you two and your child. Much Love to you both and the greatest gift that life could give and that to be your soon to be child.

A Battle You Don't Want To Lose

All men will know this battle that will put any man into shame when lost. And that is masturbating with out an orgasm. How degrading or frustrating it is to beat your meat to almost get to the point of climax then lose it. It has happened to everyone I don't care who you are. I have a very healthy sex drive and my little soldier can always hold his salute but some days you just don't have it. And then the tough decision you have to make to give up and pull up your pants and walk away from it is the toughest. Your dick even looks depressed all beat up and still filled with blood that was rushed to it for your hard on. You don't even feel the same after, you just have to put your head down and give your head a slow shake of disappointment.
But the most horrible of these phenomenons is when you are almost about to shoot and you get that throbbing that sends your life liquid flying but instead on the second throb it just gives way and your dick becomes absolutely flacid and take my word it is better just to give up then to try again because it will take a lot of time to get to nut again.
A tip from a pro masturbater masturbation shouldn't take that long especially when you are a veteran. You should just pull down your pants and in two minutes be done with what you want unless you are trying to kill a couple of hours or you want to play and see how long you can keep with out busting. So here are some tips to get you to what you need and fast -
1. Start to think about sex before going to the pornography
2. Know exactly what porn you want to see
3. Rub the shit out of your knob and the beginning of your neck (the most sensitive spot)
4. Get to the good scenes in your chice of porno and if you have a fetish go with that porn to watch
5. Don't lay down while masturbating sit up like in a chair
6. Once you get that hard on and build up cum like your about to shoot after rubbing your knob from step one start to give your dick strokes with full slides but never let your hand go beyond the beginning of your knob.
7. When you feel cum start entering the pipes move slightly with your hips in any direction this throws you off balance of your sitting position. This for some reason sets off something that is equivalent to having the nitrous button in your car
8. Don't ever give up once you get that build up and I find once you get that build up like your about to shoot a load hold it like your trying to stop your piss and keep doing it until it just explodes.
And these tips should get you to a time under four minutes. Log in next time for to learn about using anal toys to give you a special nutting.

My Obsession with Asian Women

Well I have an addiction and I plan on keeping it for awhile. I am addicted to Asian women. I grew up around a lot of Asians and my first crush as a kid was an Asian girl. All sorts of them too. Big ones, small ones, ugly ones, fine ones, stupid ones, geeky ones, and so on and so forth. It is an extremely strong fetish for me. They just turn me on and I can never get sick of them at all. I believe they are God's greatest creation when it comes to women, he gave it all he got when it comes to these girls. But I have not yet been able to have one as a lover. This actually leads to a funny story of mine.
So there is this older Vietnamese woman (my favorite of the Asian nationality) who I just love. She is in great shape and she is petite with a slamming body and such a cute ass that you don't really find on Asian women (sorry girls but it is true). Plus she is all together a great girl. So I have been trying for years to get close to her. While I was getting close to her I came to realize how cool of a person she is and we just became the infamous "F" word (friends). So sex is now out of the question. My dreams were a little shattered but a good thing came from this - she introduced me to her niece.
One day she asked me if I was interested in marrying an Asian girl. I thought at first - great I am going marry a woman so she can come into the country. So she showed me a picture and it blew my mind away. She was so incredibly gorgeous. So I thought I will give it a shot. So we started to e-mail each other now and then. The more I came to know her the more I started to fall for this girl. I also found out she didn't want to get married at first which was great because I know she was not just using me for a citizenship.
This girl is the girl of my dreams. She is an excellent painter, a great singer with such a beautiful voice (she sings me a song every weekend when we talk on the phone), and she is so kind hearted. I hit the lotto on this woman. She stole any type of love I have for any other woman and all I can think of is her. Everyday all I think of is her and it is great to be in love which I have never experienced before. We have been talking for two years now and I have not been with a woman since (as long as the women in pornography doesn't count). Plus this relationship was built on communication and not mistaken through what I think is love through sex (which I am not knocking down).
It is funny how the world works and how my life goes. I am going to Vietnam in August to marry her. I figured a marriage would probably work better through not knowing a person at all and one from a whole different culture then one that you do know because most of the marriages that I have seen where the people knew each other has ended badly. But this is how far my love for Asian women has led me - to go all the way to Vietnam to marry one.
Oh yeah learning Vietnamese is not that easy one word could mean several different things by just the way you say it. But I am looking forward to this experience and finally being able to touch the woman of my dreams and be able to know what she smells like, feels like, and tastes. I didn't intend that to be in a sexual way even if the people that do know me would not believe that at all but really I've fallen head over heals for this girl. Many thanks to the Gods for granting me this opportunity and I promise I will never have a tear fall from my lover's face. I love you with all my heart Phuong.
PS. the picture above is not her but my favorite porn star Asa Akira, I don't have a picture of my wife on this computer I will post one of her later. But hey check out Asa Akira she is awesome at making what she does look good.